Radiant Hatred

Oh how cavernous that

hate is how radiant

it makes that black glossy

heart shine exhaling its

nefarious airs as

it pollutes the blinded

susceptible with

deceptive care oh how

wonderfully brilliant

that lustrous bitterness

that crippled ideal of

what it is to love glows

within that shallow well

of sincerity when the

only thing that soul is rich

in is depravity

an evil perverted

covetous fantasy

that it feels anything

know that the lustre of

narcissism is vile

and repulsive you can

try and hide that you’re dead

inside but no matter

how much you polish a

turd it will always be

like you a piece of shit

Social Media Whore

I won’t be a social

media whore any

more because I don’t need

the fake validation

that’s for sure. I’m happy

to do away with the

pretence that we are friends

I will no longer sit

on the fence complicit

in the false narrative

that we care about each

other’s lives when the truth

is that we don’t we care

only about our own

the connection will not

be missed I’m connected

to me and the person

I am striving to be

beautifully alone

with authenticity

you may think you know who

I have been when

you are scrolling on a

screen but the truth is that

we never really know

who anybody is

we’re all second guesses

Rib Cage

There is a fire

sitting in my rib cage

its sparks are sadness

it is kindled by rage

Trauma is an arsonist

that keeps burning

choking my whole

suffocating my soul

with an overwhelming

grief for life for love

for feeling worthy

and the flames

are roaring

oh how they hurt me

marred me

scarred me

and no matter

how hard I try

to extinguish

that part of me

that is ablaze

my memory always

wants to raise

those things I’d

rather forget

and so I sit with

this fire in my rib cage

that will not go out

and I want to scream

I want to shout

I want to cry

I want to know why

the past will not

just go away

but I sit here silently

apathetic and pathetically

exhausted and sad