Unalome

I analysed everything
on my journey.  I found my
own misdirection and came
to the conclusion that by
rewinding each happenstance,
I had unravelled myself.
Recalling the constructive
interference and realised
truths in Chiron and Venus,
those life lessons are bittersweet.
I learned all that is karmic.
I slip into happiness and sadness,
recalling, thinking and I know
I’m walking the Fibonacci.
In clarity these thoughts keep
coming back to me. I feel the
vibrations of their complexity
in my throat,  yet I can’t hear
the sound of release.  I reveal
to myself my own truth,  that
the one thing that haunts me is
eternally internalised.  It makes
me realise that as I am
treading each stair, the widening
of my enlightenment is a flickering
light not a beacon.  But I’m always
hopeful as I scrutinise me, that
my younger self will one day cry
and find a way to let it go.
I don’t know how to nurture
my own wound but I will keep
stumbling up the staircase.  I am
wise enough to know that
eventually the flickering will
end, and hand in hand all my selves
will walk into the incandescent
illumination of peace and healing.
We will all be happy and free